A BALLAD- DEDICATED TO MOM

I grew up and watched other forms of earthly love droop just like leaves during the fall, fading away like the evening sun. There's never been a reason to question yours because it's been exceptional and life-changing. I graced your womb in your youthful bloom and I remain eternally grateful for the privilege.
To write about your love for humanity, kind-heartedness towards everyone, penny-plain simplicity would be describe a hurricane in its perfect power.
My scented flower giving fragrance to every palm that caresses you... even to the one that crushes you.
Long live my rare BEAUTY
Long live my phenomenal symbol of motherhood
Long live the woman who gave me life
Long live the QUEEN whose crown remains unshakable



                         AIDI

MUTED LIPS

Tears dripping
Blood draining
she was soaking
In the tub and crying
Her wounds were hurting

Every dusk, every dawn
His fist was his weapon
Battering was his art
His regrets
He gave her as gifts

The sorry word was her mantra
She chanted, meditated
And prayed
And hoped
He would change

Until the last sound he heard was a blow
It triggered a mass flow
of blood.. spilling on the floor
It diminished her glow forever
His last gift to her was a wreath on her grave

-aidillicmusings



Dedicated to victims/souls lost to domestic violence
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Your abusive partner doesn't have a problem with his anger; he has a problem with your anger. One of the basics human rights he takes away you is the right to be angry with him no matter how badly he treats you, he believes that your voice shouldn't rise and your blood shouldn't boil. The privilege of rage is reserved for him alone. When your anger does jump out of you-as will happen to any abused woman from time to time- he is likely to jam it back down your throat as quickly as he can. Then he uses your anger against you to prove what an irrational person you are. Abuse can make one feel straitjacketed. You may develop physical or emotional reactions to swallowing your anger such as depression, nightmares, emotional numbness or eating and sleeping problems.. which your partner may use as an excuse to belittle you further or make you feel crazy.(Culled from Lundy Bancroft-WHY DOES HE DO THAT?:INSIDE THE MINDS OF ANGRY AND CONTROLLING MEN)
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LEAVE TO STAY ALIVE PLEASE
FLEE FROM DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
STOP FEEDING HIS CRAZY EGO
REAL MEN DONT HIT WOMEN

DO YOU CREATE TIME FOR LEISURE?

With family, job and household responsibilities, leisure time is a luxury for many of us. You can learn to enjoy your leisure time by organising it, learning to say no and yes when necessary, deciding what you like to do and making specific plans for enjoyment and relaxation.

Organise Your Time.

If you have a limited amount of free time each week, it makes sense to organise what you have so that you can more time to fully enjoy it. Instead of letting household chores drag out over the weekend, try taking care of them first thing, especially things you don't like to do. You might find that you better enjoy your leisure time when you can devote yourself to it.

Learn To Say No.

If you find it hard to get time for yourself, learn to say no to others who make demands on your time. We often feel that we must always yield to the cravings and demands of loved ones, if what they require you to do for them conflicts with your leisure time, please tell them no and make them understand your unavailability at that time.

Make A List. 

Do you have a list of things you'd do if you had time? Would you like to read a good book, learn a new skill or get interested in a hobby? By making a list of things you enjoy doing, you might likely think more about how you can control your time and indulge in things that interest you.

Be Spontaneous. 

Your whole life as been boringly predictable by living a life where everything is outlined or planned. Being spontaneous is being active; start slow. Mix your pattern a little bit based on your changeable routines, take a different route to work. Call a friend and meet for drinks downtown. Reconnect with old friends/school mates. Spontaneity involves embracing mysteries; follow your cravings, make immediate plans, take a trip. It doesn't have to be expensive, it could be a neighbouring town.

Yours Truly.

[Reference: Parlay International 1610.088]

FEED YOUR FANTASIES UNTIL THEY BECOME DREAMS

First thought that flashes through the mind when dream is mentioned is, the dreams we have when we sleep.
       Dream is literally defined as a series of thoughts, images, sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep and also a cherished ambition ,aspirations or ideal. Dreams come to mind during the day as fantasies and of course when we sleep. During the day we daydream or fantasize over the things we greatly desire in our minds and would want them to come to reality. most times, fantasies serve as a gateway from an awkward present situation or a long term, nagging issue. Everything around us is an inspiration, reason why we fantasize.
     Human abilities/capabilities is limitless so we ought to pay attention to our environs- be inspired, fantasize and stretch your fantasies. FEED, WATER AND NURTURE them until they become dreams. Dreams do come true so it's a win-win situation.
                                                      
                                               Yours Truly   
      

DEAR LIFE.

       I've been here for a while and I want to share a bit of how I feel. I was told the time, day, month and year I got here and I confirmed that when I was a pre-teen, that's when I had access to my credentials. I remember Dad kept it in his safe for me and my siblings until one is old enough to have access to them. We don't choose the family we are born into, otherwise the Buckingham palace would be 'crowded' and the rest of the world unexplored because each and everyone of us desire maximum comfort and affluence.
        I'm grateful for my wonderful and phenomenal family, they have been my biggest and strongest supporting system. You have been exciting, intriguing and challenging so far but I'm here today because I skipped the hurdles, faced the obstacles, fought the battles, danced through the parties and not forgetting the part that I'm celebrated every year.
        I made a few wrong turns, they call them mistakes; I guess that's what makes me human after all. The experiences that I've had made me more aware of myself as a person and so TODAY I DECLARE:
       I must master you in every area and I will no longer settle for anything less than what I know I deserve. I commit myself to explore all the potentials that you have blessed me with because I know what is worth my energy and time. I want to empower myself as a woman, work relentlessly and push beyond my known limits.
      I am ready to LIVE you in the never-ending cycle of self-growth and use the unlimited power within my being to attain set goals. I am solely responsible for shaping my destiny, create boundaries when necessary, stay afloat in deep waters of uncertainties and above all... keep faith and hope alive in the HOLY TRINITY.
                                                              Yours Truly.
 

MONDAYS-
                 ⧫PERFECT DAYS TO CORRECT LAST WEEK'S MISTAKES.[BORROWED QUOTE]

ME!

 ME HAS EXISTED FOR A PRETTY LONG TIME WITHOUT LIVING THIS 'FLAIR'.
 ME IS COMPOSED OF CRAVINGS, STRIVINGS, HOPES, EXPECTATIONS AND DESIRES FOR THE FUTURE.
ME HAS TRIED NOT TO BE AN OUTCOME OF PAIN,BETRAYAL, HEARTBREAKS, DISAPPOINTMENTS, GRIEF & ABUSE BUT THE SEPARATION THAT HAD ALREADY OCCURRED BETWEEN ME AND PAST.
ME HAS ALWAYS TRIED TO BECOME SOMETHING. SOMEBODY.
ME ONLY EXISTED IN MY HEAD.
ME WILL USE THIS PLATFORM TO TALK ABOUT ENDLESS TOPICS, REAL TALK.
....IT'S TIME TO SHARE ME'THOUGHTS, I WILL POUR ME'INK AS LONG AS WE ARE ALL HERE. THIS IS AN OPEN ROOM FOR CONSTRUCTIVE COMMENTS, IDEAS &SUGGESTIONS.
IT ISN'T A THOROUGHFARE SO PLEASE DON'T JUST WALK NOR STROLL PASS WITHOUT SHARING YOUR INK. FEEL FREE.
                                                          YOURS TRULY,
                                                                  AIDILLIC.